There are lots of different reasons for why women have a tendency to feel guilty and judged for wanting more out of life then what we have. Part of it is that we become so programmed to put others needs first, that the big dream we had, becomes a soft whisper barely being heard above the noise of our busy lives. If by any chance that dream finds a voice it is quickly flattened by our own lack of self worth telling us we are not good enough. And in a blink, life flies by.
Then there is this moment. A moment in time when every awakened woman looks around at her life and she doesn’t recognise who she is anymore. She looks herself in the mirror and the physical reflection is no longer a true expression of the person she is on the inside. She asks herself Is this all there is to life? Is this it? It is also this same moment when she decides that she is going to take her life back.
If you look around you will recognise signs that it happening to women all around you. It could be a Facebook cull, decluttering a home, losing weight, quitting a job or leaving a relationship. Glennon Doyle Melton talks about “…trying to strip myself down to my barest essentials so I can figure out where I begin and the woman the world told me to be begins….And the unbecoming begins.” All of these events are a physical manifestation of taking back control of your life. They signify peeling back the onion layers to find the real essence of your soul and deciding that these things are no longer a fit for who you really are. It is brave and it is messy. But it also creates room in your life to welcome in the things you really want.
Often we will try to rationalise the situation to find the answer for why we are feeling the way we do. On top of that, the big dream seems to far from where we are at its almost impossible to imagine how we could ever get there.
So stop thinking! Instead do whatever helps you feel good and surrender. Let go of the guilt and the judgement, and forgive yourself. Surrender and have blind faith that it will all work out how its supposed and just focus on the one good feeling thing that puts you in a place of content. Every time you do you keep adding to that positive attractive energy. You will start to glance around your life you see a glimmer of what is supposed to be. The first step can be the hardest but as you keep going you realise its not as hard as you thought and you get into the rhythm of living life on your own terms. As you look back along your journey its hard to understand why you let it go on for so long but you sure as hell are not going back. Never again. And when the time is right, its going to catapult you so much further then you could have even imagined.
“Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?” Marianne Williamson